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Wed, May. 5th, 2004, 10:14 am

life at the new job isn't so bad. I've been working a lot lately which is fine because that means I'm making the big bucks.

He came over to my work and we ate at Yello Sub. Being with him and the food were both delish. After work he came over. We picked up a few things I need to buy. I had some money because Rae Rae gave me some of the money she owed me. So I let him use some of the money because he's a broke....and I'm a nice girlfriend who just wants him to be happy. I would do anything for him. When we're in public kissing and cuddling and junk, he always comments on how gross we must look to other people. We hold hands when we eat. It's pathetic in the best way.

School is almost over. My motovation to continue going to my classes doesn't exist. I need to take a make up quiz and study but I'm just burnt out and need the summer to come.

I have no real complaints. My monroe is basically healed, so he and I washed our hands and cleaned the smaller metal piece and put it in last night.I'm keeping the big back on it for now until it's completely healed because that's what was making it swollen and gross the last time. I wish I had more money for more tattoos.

Sun, May. 2nd, 2004, 07:27 pm

My monroe is healing nicely. I went to prom last night. It was sooo fun. Josh was my date. We danced a bit. It was really good to see everyone. I wish I went to the PTH show on Friday but my roommates were having a big party and I wanted to be here. We're getting along decently now. I just got done with my last comp2 paper. Which is awesome. I'm really sleepy. I got home at 6 am. I don't really feel like writing right now.

Fri, Apr. 30th, 2004, 02:23 pm

So a bit more details about our fight.
She called me a dumb little bitch, then refused to believe she was even the slightest bit immature.
If you name call during an argument as lame as "dumb little bitch" it's immature. Besides we're 19 of course we're going to be immature.
so I shared with her she had no friends and she was the most bitter person I had ever met.
So then he commented she doesn't bring her friends over because she's embarassed of the way I behave with my boyfriend. Apparently we fight all the time.
I don't think so. We use to but we haven't really fought in the longest time. So she sucks.
So I called her out on trashing the house and using all my shit. She denied those alligations and I decided she was a cunt. I can tell she honestly felt bad for what she said, but too fucking bad and too fucking late. We use to be really good friends and I just don't need that bullshit.
So I feel kinda akward being around. She also told me"I couldn't just come and go as I pleased. This was my house and my room and I have to stay here"I definately let her know that was a load of bullshit. This is my place too and as long as I pay my bills, it's none of her fucking business what I do. I told her that my parents didn't even tell me when I couldn't come and go. She said "I know that's why you're just a spoiled little bitch who doesn't know how to live with anyone"I told her "that's funny, I'm the one who has friends over all thet ime and practically live with my boyfriend. She doesn't ever have anyone over and so that's just really funny and ironic how that works out" Fucking bitch. Grrrr. Tonight we're having a huge party. I'm just not going to deal with her or let her ruin my night.

Blah. Work is going really good. I really like my new job. I'm really broke and worried about rent. Rachel promised to pay me $100 tomorrow adn I have to put that in my account almost immediately so my rent check is a good check. Yeap, it sucks. I get paid from my new job pretty soon. I should get nicer checks because I make more and I'm working more.I have to work tonight until 10 or 10:30 which I've been working almost every day this week and I don't mind it at all. I actually see people I know alll day. Crystal came in last night and it was soo good to see her baby.

He came over really early yesterday. I gave him a 10 which I've been trying hard to for a long time. We went to the mall. Hot Topic really wants me to work there. It'd be an easy part time job this summer on top of Target. So, maybe. We got some lunch and rented Big Fish. Which is a fantastic movie.

School didn't really work out for me today but sleep did.

Wed, Apr. 28th, 2004, 10:06 am

I'm bored. I think my roommates are pissed that I moved out my TV and junk. Oh fucking well. I promise to pay to live there, not to let them use all my shit. Besides, I share and they don't. Very mature of me I know but it's true. I let them use almost everything and then they took advantage of me. So fuck'em. Now I'm back at my dad's house and it rocks. So if you're interested 286-4458 is the number there. You should call me because my cell phone is a whore and it uses too much battery and costs too much. I'm starving. I am going to see him after class and it'll rock. I wish I cared more and tried more. I think I could do good in school if I cared. Today is going by oohh soooo slowly. I wish Christina were around.

Mon, Apr. 26th, 2004, 10:16 am
always free!!

When someone reads your livejournal, xanga or subkulture or whatever you have, these are your real thoughts. So, how can they get pissed off if they subject themselves to the truth. Sometimes the truth is mean and nasty none the less, it's the fucking truth and you have to adapt.

Yes, I think it's fucked up she's made no attempt to pay me back.
Yes I think it's fucked up that she's being a bitch to me, when she's the one who's fucking me over.
Yes, I think it's fucked up how girls (myself included) take offense soo damned easily.

but it's the fucking truth, and if you don't like the truth or it pisses you off, you should do something to change it. I know, I don't want to hear you bitch.

I had the weirdest dream last night. I dreamt I was living in the dorms, and there were guns everywhere. I wasn't scared of the guns though. I wouldn't really touch them and I wouldn't shoot anyone but I wasn't scared of getting shot. I was waiting for the boy to come over. In my dreams days would pass and I would do different things, then finally he showed up. Then I woke up. I couldn't sleep for shit last night. I probably should have taken my medicine. I just missed him so much and I was so excited to finally talk to him. I couldn't wait to see him today but now I've found out that I start work at 4 and have training until 8. Then maybe we can hang out. I'm sure he could come over to my dads house or we could spend a night at my apartment. I just know, that I miss feeling his body next to me. I only hope he cares about me half as much asI care about him.

Fri, Apr. 23rd, 2004, 10:32 am

Rachel owes me some money. She's pissed off that I mentioned it a few times. Shit it's been 4 months and I haven't seen a dime that she owes me. It's not like I'm asking for a lot from her. Eh whatever. I refuse to feel bad. I'm not doing anything wrong. The deal was that we'd split things half and half and she hasn't paid her half. I'm not doing anything wrong by asking for the money. I plan on moving soon and I'd like the money before I move. I'm not doing anything wrong.

I got a job. It's about time too. I'd like to get a second job over the summer. I'm going to miss him like crazy so I need to distract myself.

Lately there has been nothing but great party after party every weekend. I'm excited to go to my friend Crystal's because I haven't seen her in a really long time and it's her graudation from the college program thing she was in. Then I'm going to Irene's with him. We're going to have fun. I like to hang out with that crowd.

Last night was the Bouncing Souls. It rocked my fucking face. I love that band. I got on the stage, and skanked to the other side and crowd surfed. I ended up going up 3 times. Which is well 3 more times than I ever have before.

I got my nose pierced. I think it rocks. I dyed my hair red and I like it. My hair is also starting to grow out more and I like it a lot more than I did before. So far so good. Today isn't too bad. I've gotten my home work done I just hope there's no quiz in Ethics today. If there is, I'm totally screwed.

Tue, Apr. 20th, 2004, 12:52 pm
i don't know no nato

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<IMG src="http://pic5.picturetrail.com/VOL91/2062529/3999107/51608118.jpg" <BR><FONT face=Verdana color=#9933cc size=2> I step on Joes face.<BR><BR><IMG src="http://pic5.picturetrail.com/VOL91/2062529/3999107/51608112.jpg"> <BR><IMG src="http://pic5.picturetrail.com/VOL91/2062529/3999107/51608072.jpg" <BR> <BR>Now, the hair and the monroe. It's still a bit red. this picture was taken not too long after it was done. I really love the monroe and I'm not quite sure of the hair.<BR><BR><IMG src="http://pic5.picturetrail.com/VOL91/2062529/3999107/51608064.jpg" <BR> <BR><IMG src="http://pic5.picturetrail.com/VOL91/2062529/3999107/51608059.jpg" <BR> We went bowling last night. I granny bowled and took second once. I did break a hundred granny bowling. JJ lost really bad in every game. Jamie and Joe are a fun couple</FONT>

Mon, Apr. 19th, 2004, 10:17 am

Ashton

Me

 

If he ever hurt you, I'd kill them. Then I'd come there and steal you from him.

I would never leave him, especially not for you. I'm glad she ripped your heart out and I hope she stepped on it a few times before vommiting on it in front of you. Don't ever talk about my boyfriend again.

Hm,.Next semester I am going to only take 2 classes a day and around lunch time or so. So I can sleep in, get a bite to eat then go to class. I hope the dean approves me dropping my math class. Math is for well other people than me.

We woke up late so I'mg oing to make him a nice dinner. Tomorrow I'm going to make a picnic and we'll go out somewhere nice and pretty and eat and cuddle. I also hope to get some.

Rae and I are riding to school on Wednesday which is really nice because we haven't rode together to school in a long time. It will be nice to hang out with her. I missed him like crazy this weekend but it was good that I got out and got to hang out with my friends. I hung out with a lot of people I hvaen't in a while then I had a stay over.

I think Gracie and Christina are the two prettiest girls in JCCC. It's ridiculous. Jamie's realy pretty too she has a cute figure.

I want t a new swim suit and to gauge my ears more. I should get a job and be able to afford new earrings before I do that. JJ promises to spoil me like I've spoiled him. I just want him to buy me some food. I eat alot. This entry is way longer than expected and full of nothing but random thoughts. I should make me entries way more interesting and talk about shit worth talking about. As aposed to these thoughts I get while sitting in the coffee shop at school waiting for my next class. Lame.

Sun, Apr. 18th, 2004, 08:47 pm

damn damn book reports. i will read half of farenheight 451 tonight.

i am going to look for some more jobs. i don't know how promising HT is.

I miss him. I need to read.

is it wrong that I'm happy Ashton got his heart broke in a way?

Sat, Apr. 17th, 2004, 09:35 pm

I got the bag for him. I think he'll like it. I only worry that it won't be big enough. I'm cleaningup my room and moving more stuff out. I plan on basically living in Topeka as of this week.
Speaking of which, still no job yet the bills still come in here. So...I don't know how the job at Hot Topic is looking. I don't know how my interview went but it seemed to go ok. So if anyone knows of anywhere other than hot topic and target to apply at...maybe the distribution center....you shoudl help me out.
Christina is coming over in a bit. Jaime and Joe are on their way over. I went and saw Kill Bill with Josh Ryan and Danielle. I really liked the second one. Granted, it was a bit mushier and I liked her as a fierce bitch who just killed people. I'm a sucker for anything with a splash of romance.

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